I remember myself hurrying to grow up when I was younger. When I was 5, I remember myself seeing a newly built building near our place. I told myself, that would be my clinic. I wanted that time to be a dentist.
Now I don't want to be a dentist, not just because I hate to see injections piercing gums, or pulling tooth after tooth, but because I have other desires, which I hope and pray are in line with the desires of the Lord's heart.
Years ago, I was in a hurry to be 18. I thought there are many opportunities for an eighteen year old to explore the world, to look for my place. Now I am eighteen, I thought I am ready to do the exploration, but the Lord told me that I am not.
Sometimes it's frustrating to wait, isn't it? Especially when you feel you're prepared. Then we'll ask many why's. And worse, be rebellious.
"No I want it this way. Step a little farther, Lord. I know what I am doing." Unconsciously we tell these to the Lord everytime we make our plans without consulting Him through prayers and thorough discernment. And when we fail, we cry, "Why did You allow this Lord!"
It really sounds so foolish to give full trust to our own capabilities. It is as if we know everything, that we are very powerful and can control everything. I remember Martha who was somehow disappointed when the Lord was "late" when Lazarus died. "Lord if You had been here, my brother would not have died." Martha was waiting for the Lord to help her brother but alas! Lazarus already died!
But Jesus had other plans. After four days in the tomb, Lazarus was raised by Jesus. And those who witnessed this believed (see John 11: 1-46).
We could be Martha. "Lord, if you just did this" or "if you just allowed me, I'll be happy. I'll suffer no more." The Lord let Martha wait so that they can see His power. It is impossible to raise a corpse, already decaying for four days. But Jesus raised him! And if we are able to wait, we'll realize that the Lord has a great plan.
Waiting doesn't necessarily mean nothing is going on. The Lord is already acting during the waiting period.
Don't worry if you are in the "waiting" stage. It's all part of the plan.